Tennis - owned and married by me

Is there another way to say "grr?" Because I'm so rediculously confused, it's not even funny anymore. The question may come up, why would I ruin something that has done nothing in the least to me? And of course, the only answer I can come up with is, not to ruin but be in a state of doubt unless things change, or ruin because I'm foolish, idiotic, misconceived, confused, unsure, and torn. Absolutely TORN. I just want a sign from up above to help me out through this situation, a situation that has unfortunately presented itself to me before, and did not go smoothly, even though I made, I think, the correct decision. TORN.

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Wow, does this feel weird, it's definitely been awhile....

Choices always were a problem for you.
What you need is someone strong to guide you.
Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow,
what you need is someone strong to use you..
like me,
like me.

If you want to get your soul to heaven,
trust in me .
Don't judge or question.
You are broken now ,
but faith can heal you.
Just do everything I tell you to do.
Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow.
Let me lay my holy hand upon you.

My Gods will
becomes me.
When he speaks out,
he speaks through me.
He has needs
like I do.
We both want
to rape you.

Jesus Christ, why don't you come save my life.
Open my eyes and blind me with your light
and your lies.



Freaky stuff huh? The music to that song isn't too bad actually, despite the crazy and unmoral lyrics. Those were the songs I was hooked on for awhile, but
now I moved on to Dave Matthews!!!!!

"I'll be your Dixie chicken if you'll be my Tennessee Land, and we will walk together down in Dixie Land" Good Stuff

So anyways, for you people who don't know, i recently sprained my ankle, but not as bad as i did last time, as a matter of fact i might be playing on it soon...hopefully..
Bio sucks, it's so hard, and i feel like we're the most stupid class she's ever had, because she can't believe what we don't know, oh well. It's the exact opposite in
Kuhar's class baby!! We're pretty darn bright I'd say.

Dance is coming soon!! I can't wait, it's been awhile since I've "had" to listen to rap, lol. Good stuff.

Was it just me, or was everyone wearing a lot of orange today?? Kinda of cool, actually, lol.

Cristaudo is gay, lol, she needs to take more five day weekends, and German is almost unstandablely (if that's a word) boring. I can't believe how slow freshmen classes are, I don't remember them seeming that slow my freshmen year.

Well maybe I'll write more next time, probably when I'm not rushed to finish my summer reading q's. C everyone tomorrow!!

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"every dog has its day, every day has its way of being forgotten, mom it's my birthday, would you say?" Dave Matthews Band

Well this post is upon request because apparently people actually read these things, lol.

Where to start since last time??? Let's try love life first this time.
Maggie.

Now on to tennis, I love the frickin paper!!!! Get today's Daily Journal, and give me a copy and I'll sign it for you, haha! Now the trick is, to win these awards next year for my senior year. Next year we have to win States!! I have to win South Jersey Coaches Tournament, and I have to at least make it to the quarterfinals of the State tournament.

School is done. Can you believe it?? I sure can't. I don't feel nearly old enough to be considered a senior next year. This year was so much, despite some of the hardships that I've gone through. But everything works out in the end, and I know, I won't even argue, that my hardships probably weren't as bad as others, but they still were tough. Of all the classes, I'll miss lunch the most. Some of the weirdest conversations were held there, and some of the funniest ones. Remember the last lunch of the year (apparently random comments can make people laugh quite hysterically)

Well this summer will mostly consist of tennis, friends, and maggie : ), that is if parents don't get in the way.... Oh, and parties!!!!!!!

Well here I get to be a lil cocky, I got the 2nd highest grade on the pre-calc final with a 91. 2nd only to Alec, although no surprise there.
Latin final.....................
C++ Final - 98 without having to take it.
Gym Final - hell if i care

now it's time for random quotes from songs that i like

"where the grudge like a crown" Tool
"i've become so numb, i can't feel you there, become so tired, so much more aware" LP
"when this began, i had nothing to say and now you're lost in the nothingness inside of me" LP
"what do i do to ignore them behind, do i, follow my instincts blindly?" LP
"why does it feel like night today, something in here isn't right today" LP
"i am, a little bit of lonliness, a little bit of disregard" LP

peace

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Here we go, I know it's been awhile, since I've gone, and fuc.... I mean updated this blog...

So where to start?? Tennis is always a great place.
As many of you know, I had a huge picture in the paper that virtually everyone saw (a little arrogant, but like Ms Kuhar said, don't put people down for their accomplishments) and I love that feeling. I love the press, maybe I'm destined to be famous??

We had a pretty big tournament this weekend, that we didn't do so bad in, but we could've done better, or shall I say, the singles could've done better?? It sucked so much, because we played a team that had not played a match the entire day so they were fresh, and we had played one match and been out in the sun for hours. Anyway, they really screwed up the scheduling and I had to go on first while the rest of the team had to wait.... It worked out so beautifully (sarcastic inflection implied) that when I got done getting my ass whipped, doubles came on to my court and they didn't have any reason to play because all singles lost and we had already lost the match. So because of us (me most importantly because I was the only singles player expected to have a chance) they had to play a pointless match. I can't even begin to describe how ashamed I feel.... All the more motivation to plain out kick Kingsway's ass Wednesday.

Hey to all the Ryan Capoferri's out there, you need to realize that when you call someone and their friend gay, you're gonna get people pissed off at you, just in case you wondering.

A free day in third block tomorrow if anyone is wondering, lol, maybe get out of class and join Harry and I, lol.
A free day in fourth block tomorrow, just in case anyone gave two cents (i hate that word!)...

Now it's time for the love life update, or anything that I'm willing to share............... Nope, nothing that I really want to post... mainly because I don't want to start anything that's not yet certain.

Hey Allison, if you ever get to this part, Mickey wanted me to tell you (once again) that he likes this friendship thing. He thinks it's the best way to go. I think you agree??

"I should just play God, and.... shoot you myself!" Tool
"I know the pieces fit" Tool
"Welcome to Atlanta where the players play" Ludacris
"It's been, one week since I looked at you" you know who!


I really love playing tennis in gym, maybe someday we actually will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I swear though, if I wasn't sitting next to anyone that I had to hold my pride to at that assembly, I would've been like a broken faucet. When that kid's dad came out and told us to think of someone who met the most to us, and then think of that person being his son, it just ripped me up inside. I could absolutely not imagine such a thing, I don't know how they do it at all. The worst thing is, I've escaped that situation many times now because a member in my family is fortunate to be walking on earth right now.

Well while I'm waiting for dinner.. I'm gonna do the normal things like shower, lol, peace

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Have you ever listened to just one song on an entire CD, because that's the only one you know?? And then gradually listen to the other songs to see if you like them too?? That happens to me all the time, for example, I only like two or three songs of the Hybrid Theory album, and I forgot to put repeat on one time, so I listened to the other songs by accident, and now I absolutely love them.

Well Mr. CRHS was yesterday, and I would say it woud've been worth my five bucks if Joe had messed up somewhere. He did okay, but I give more credit to those guitar players, they were pretty good. Speaking of guitars, Trevor rocked it. I think the only reason why he wasn't a finalist though was because too many other people had guitar players in their skits, that just made Trevor seem insignificant. I felt bad though, because no one else could play like him. Trevor Hendrix???

Once again, I mistakenly thought I had practice today at 1:30, when I have it at 2:30. Yesterday I played almost five hours, I was so wiped, but yet I found enough energy to go to Mr. CRHS. I don't get it, do our bodies have limitless energy??? I defeated Liam yesterday to retain my position at #1, woohoo! I can't wait for our first scrimmage Monday, although I hear there is gonna be poor weather, somehow I'm not surprised in the least.

As of today, March 21st, 12:47 PM, I don't know what's going on in my love life at all. Very confused, I keep having these dreams, that I don't know if they're supposed to be giving me a sign, or if they're just flukes. I hate those dreams though, becuase I always have to wake up!

Did anyone else see the Vet go down?? It didn't even really seem like that big of a deal, although all of the new building are going to have a lot of dirt on them I imagine. It went down like dominos, kind of cool.

This is all I have that I can think of............ Oh yeah one more thing, sure I didn't know that the GCN wouldn't hookup, I could've sworn the plugs were right...LoL.

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Oh man, what am I doing writing this blog entry at this time of day?? Well, another free day in Jones class, and I have nothing else to do. I can't read the book I want to because of all the distractions, and I didn't bring any other form of entertainment.

Well Tennis season is here, and I made it at #1. I hope I hold on to it, I can lose in a challenge match and get knocked down, but if I play in the challenge match like I did against Chuck yesterday, then I feel pretty confident.

Hey Allison if you ever get around to this, I think Mickey likes you. He says he doesn't know what to say or what to do, so he said it was okay if I mention it in my blog... he knows of your current involvement, but he said that he just can't "stop" liking someone. He hopes all is not lost.

Well I'm gonna attempt to read my book again, doubt it'll work...

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TENNIS SEASON IS COMING!!!!!!! I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it!!

But first things first, I rocked the Pre Calc test!!! 97 Baby, but I sadly fell into all the traps she was hoping for us gullible kids to fall into. Luckily she only took off a point for each one...

As for Baker, let's just say in my opinion is that she should go back to being a chef. This isn't working out, I think she has too many loop holes where you can get around not doing the work, and still be able to keep up with the class, just not on tests or quizzes. So alec, there you go, there's my opinion, much shorter than yours, but my fingers hurt, lol.. Call EMS...

This weekend for me looks like an action packed tennis weekend, I have a feeling I'm gonna be dead tired on Monday, lol.

Well here are some things I just write when I have too much time to think....

"Hope is just an excuse not to move on, to be afraid of losing what is already lost."
"How am I expected to start anew, when the old is still so misunderstood?"
"Hope is the beginning of all anger, and the reason for the anger not going away..."
"Hope in the wrong hands destroys.... hope in the right hands destroys."
"People who know things based only on hearsay will have unbelievable expectations of you that you cannot possibly fulfill."
"When it comes some things, you yourself must be happy first before you go on a mission to please others."
"People go to bed early not because they are tired, but because they don't want to be awake."
"If you cannot teach yourself, than a teacher is not what you need, but a coach instead."
And finally... "Women are like trying to translate Latin without a dictionary.... IMPOSSIBLE"

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